driven into a corner.
you know, you wont understand it. the risk of losing all links to the outside world. the constant throbbing pain which refuses to leave, dragging its sharp heels over my soul, leaving its unremovable traces there. the helplessness when you turn to your right and left and finding no one there. the hopelessness when you know that no matter where you find, you wont see anyone. the obvious blankness when you look into the screen of your life. the disappointment when you waited for so long and it still doesn't seem to work out.
i told myself, its alright, its okay. and yet, i dream about it, i want it so much. the pain just pierces right through. when i lose myself again, i tell myself not to be weak and gather my strength from Him instead. yes, because His love is unfailing. i am hanging to that; and ain't letting go.
kaixin.
