shocked

why? i wonder, ponder,

and i still cant get any answer.

anyway, shock of the day: kris allen won american idol. he actually beat ADAMlambert! zomg, i was so sure adam lambert will just own everyone and emerge as the nest american idol because he's so super talented and different from all the others. kris allen? he reminds me of david archuleta, just that archuleta's cute.

ah, shuttup about that. and, i am not sure whether i should go run for student council. yeah, i am considering. well, my results arnt that great and i am already running out of time. all odds are against me.

and, i know. you just postponed, cancelled again. like, the 5th or 6th time? apologies are not needed, its okay. i am used to it. disppointments are something that you be immune to after awhile. sighs, its alright. oh, and happy birthday.

yes, i am in a emotional turmoil now, becuase of some stuffs that turned my brain upside-down. i dont know why but i am having major moodswings now. not happy, moody. it's happpy, and then, sadddd. and i will get all, gloomy. >.<>

i am straying away from my goal.

wake up, kaixin.

time to get your butt cracking.